He is my Healer

God is the strength of my heart

Psalm 54:4 ‘Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me’

Last year, at the TRAC Family Camp, on the 2^nd night, while I was watching the Ministry Team members praying for brothers and sisters in Christ, one man with a moustache came to me and said “Sister, do you want me to pray for you?”, I accepted his kindness and asked him to pray for God’s healing for my fibroid, then he asked “Have you seen a doctor? And what did the doctor say?” I told him that the doctor asked me to have it operated upon, but I said I have faith that God will heal me and make the fibroid shrink.

And he said “Sister, do you know that God also provides doctors to heal you?”  Later, he prayed for me and tried to convince me to have another check up.  I didn’t tell anyone about this as I was still very scared about going for an operation.

At the end of April this year (2001), in God’s timing I decided to go for the operation.  God granted me His peace.  As I checked into the ‘Pantai Putri Hospital’, I felt like I was checking into the hotel, Pantai Putri Hospital is just like a hotel.  Then as though stepping into the adventure land, I went through all the tests with wonder and amazement, no more fear in me.  The Lord said ‘So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand’ (Isaiah 41:10), I had peace in me, at night my friends and colleagues came to cheer me up.  I had my dinner and supper they bought for me, I ate to my heart’s content before the time of fasting before the operation.  God is so good, He gave me much peace and joy even at that moment, and cleared away all my fears, as I claimed His promises in Isaiah 41:10.  The next morning, I went into the Operation Theatre and out of it without fully knowing what happened.  No suffering and pain at all.

The following morning at 4.30am, I could get up and walk by holding the drip stand and the urine bag.  When the nurse saw me, she said to the girl opposite my bed “see, people with major operation also can get up and walk, you minor operation also don’t want to get up”.  At that moment I had a song in my heart – “God is the strength of my heart…., and my portion forever…”  What a wonderful God we have!

I want to share with you how God comforted me on the second night.  I woke up at midnight and as I turned my head to my right side where somebody had placed a chair, I strongly felt that Jesus was sitting on the chair and watching over me.  I was so glad and comforted, and dozed off the next minute.

During the period of resting at home, God revealed His love to me through friends and relatives.  They’re like angels, they cooked for me, bought food and stocked up the fridge for me, tidied up my house, etc.  I praise the Lord for giving me friends like them.  And I want to thank Him for speaking to me through the mustached man at the TRAC Family Camp.

 

Thank you Jesus for Your love to me

Thank you Jesus for Your grace so free

I’ll lift my voice to praise Your Name

Praise You again and again

You are everything, You are my Lord!

 

(From October 2001 Family Focus)

神会开道路

过了好些自由自在的日子。开始祷告求神开一条道路让我有机会侍奉祂。当我知道教会要聘请行政助理的时候，我雀跃万分，就写了一封信去应征。

牧师与人事部负责人给我面试，当问到我薪水的事，我睁大眼睛望着他们问道‘侍奉神有薪水拿的吗？’慈祥的女人笑了起来说道‘做牧师也要吃饭的是吧’。牧师说‘赶快聘请她，是免费的’，然后我们都笑了起来。

月底收到的薪水是RM810/=，高兴万分的感谢神！

尽力将工作做好，有时候遇到了伤心的事情，回来祷告将一切烦恼交托于神，因为知道:

“无论作什么， 都要从心里作， 像是给主作的， 不是给人作的。”歌罗西书3:23

转眼间，就在教会侍奉了11年！荣耀归于主！

我必与你同在

妈妈不在了，怡保分公司的工程也已进入尾声，我可选择去另一间分公司或回吉隆坡总公司。

我在怡保已经落了根，而又有了另外一个家庭，也就是神的家庭，心中充满喜乐，所有帮助我成长的课程都不会错过，还为一切关于神的活动而燃烧。。

被调去的公司由一个女魔头掌管，在那儿受尽折磨，曾经有一晚放了工后不想回家，去找一位主内姐妹诉苦，坐在她家沟渠旁的石墩上流泪。。

一天早上，在公司停车场与女魔头相遇，她开始胡言乱语，我默默不语，进入办公室打了一封辞职信，此处不留人，自有留人处。在此魔窟做了还不够三个月。。

感谢神在我最黑暗的时期让我知道：

以赛亚书43:2

“你从水 经过 ， 我必与你同在。 你趟过江河， 水必不漫过你。 你从火中行过， 必不被烧， 火焰也不着在你 身上 。”

Angels

The Lord will keep you from all harm, He will watch over your life.

The Lord will watch over your coming and going, both now and forevermore.

Psalm 121:7-8

This is what the Lord has assured me when I quietly prayed for protection in the office recently.  I believe no matter what troubles and storms we face in life, no matter what fear assails us, a mighty God is our greatest strength.  If God had protected me this far, would He let me down now? Yes, Lord, You are always there for me!

Let me relate to you what happened to me quite suddenly one morning during the course of my work.  A resident from the Low Cost Flats in Ipoh Garden East which is under the management of our Company came into the office and confronted me with the intention of obtaining the keys to the roof top to install the Astro aerial for his unit.  I explained to him that the Company will not accede to his demand as the rooftop is considered a common area to be shared by all the residents of that particular block.  If everyone were to install their own individual aerials then it will be an unsightly scene on top of the roof and furthermore, during the course of their installations they might damage the roof and tiles.  He was very upset and angry with me and left the office.

Later, on the same day a lady called me and I presumed it was his wife.  She voiced out her anger on me and threatened to publish her objection and dissatisfaction over this matter to the press.  She also threatened me that she would do something nasty to me and this incident occurred when I was alone in the office.  The words struck me like a blow.

At first, I felt angry and insulted.  Disoriented by fear, I started to pray to the Lord to send His guardian angels to protect me from all harms and danger and suddenly everything around me was completely still.  Slowly it took the distinct shape of two tall, dark and handsome angels in human form with two wings standing guard outside the office.  I felt surrounded by peace.  It was unlike the previous angelic vision which I had seen where they were dazzling bright and white in color.  They seemed to be monitoring the movements of those people entering the office and preventing those with bad intentions from entering the office.

Then, I received the above Bible verses from the Lord, Psalm 121:7-8.  I accepted that there is a greater spirit to which I can hand over many of my problems.  I praise and give thanks to the Lord for He has answered my prayer instantly.

“For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways”

Psalm 91:11

(From May 1998 Family Focus)

罗马书12:15 “与喜乐的人要同乐。 与哀哭的人要同哭。”

独自在‘永旺’走，欲找一双鞋子给妈妈，是为她而买的最后一样东西，是治丧的人要我买的，找到了一双平底鞋，我试穿，因为妈妈的脚号码与我相似。

不够睡的关系，头疼欲裂，好几天都人来人往，熙熙攘攘，如在梦中。。。分享追悼文又泣不成声，多丽丝与爱丽丝也眼睛红红的陪着我哭，我心中觉得好笑！问她们为何哭？她们说不知道，然后三个人相拥笑了起来。正如罗马书12:15内所描述“与喜乐的人要同乐。 与哀哭的人要同哭。”

妈妈的墓碑刻着“神阿， 我的心切慕你，如鹿切慕溪水。唯有祢是我心所渴慕来敬拜祢” 诗篇42:1-2

约翰福音14:27 “我留下平安给你们，我将我的平安赐给你们 。 我所赐的 , 不像世人所赐的 。你们心里不要忧愁 ，也不要 胆怯。”

站在医院病房的门口，心中平静，等待着护士为逝世的妈妈做善后工作。

静静的靠在墙边，感觉到妈妈走出来看着我，到了差不多早晨四点才驾车回家，心中跟妈妈说我现在最后一次带妳回家了，到接近东区老家的时候，有狗只在哀嚎。。

进了家门，并未上床，慢慢收拾妈妈的衣物，天一亮就要带去给治丧的人。

打了一通电话通知一个主内姐妹，她在教堂的晨祷一完毕七点多就到了我家门口，给我一个拥抱，惊奇我能如此平静，那是神赐下了祂的平安给我！